#55

Ay!

I'm not faring too horribly about, I don't know, carrying around clients' stories about their situations, but it's always kind of sad when you hear from a person how basically everything has gone wrong or things that they have no control over have dictated really damaging events. Ugh. At least in me, it doesn't really trigger pity or anything, I just feel really bad and/or angry on behalf of some of the clients here...

OH WELL. Can't change the world overnight. Even though I'm not usually present in the more heavy-duty client meetings (since extra people being present during crisis therapy situations don't really benefit anyone) there was one today that was kind of surprisingly deep. I'm just really glad that even though me, the crisis worker and the client didn't share a native language, everyone (especially in the client's case) was fluent enough in something to make legitimate discussion possible. As far as I know, it's exceedingly difficult to talk about feelings in a language that is not your native one. But especially in the kinds of circumstances some of the clientele have been exposed to, it's legitimately important to be able to discuss feelings and the mental struggle that's part of the healing process.

I feel a bit thrown off, to be honest. I don't usually even get the urge to smoke during the day since there's no occasion to go with anyone (I normally don't notice when the regular smokers go to have a cigarette break), but today I just needed a bit of peace. That's mostly the reason for me smoking in the first place - I don't get nicotine cravings but I think it's just good for my balance to take a few minutes' time out a couple of times a day. Even if I do it while watching videos or there's someone else present (e.g. on campus) it's still a separate thing from working or generally being in a situation where you're responsible for getting shit done. 

Oh well, it's only about an hour until I leave. I'm taking some of the extra hours I have to leave earlier today. CASUAL AND UNINTERESTING SHOPPINGU WITH J!! Yeah, my mother saw the tabletop pencil holders/boxes I bought from the bookstore yesterday, so I'm going to buy her some as well. Ha. There was something else I needed as well, but I seem to have forgotten what it is right now, so there's that.

I've also been spending way too much money on Amazon and elsewhere... I bought new fabrics for a redone Tauriel costume (or, rather, my first actual Tauriel costume) including real leather, which, although a fabulous colour and texture, was expensive as hell.

It looks awesome, though. Dayum.
Also ft. the fabric for Tauriel's dress.

And I've bought, ahem, a number of books. Like, I mean about a dozen.

The Bane Chronicles, The Shadowhunter's Codex and The Iron Trial by Cassandra Clare (The Iron Trial being co-authored by Holly Black)
Horns, 20th Century Ghosts, Heart-Shaped Box & NOS4A2/Nosferatu by Joe Hill
5th Wave and 5th Wave: The Infinite Sea by Rick Yancey
as well as Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green and David Levithan

I also ordered a tarot deck, book and box set a while ago, because I saw a detective drama episode with psychics and got way too into it. Hah. Little known fact (maybe?): I've owned a "manga tarot" deck for about 10 years. It's pretty but also I would prefer a more classic art style of tarot cards to own at this point.

#54

Okay, so I'm thinking:

The next post is going to be about the latex stuff I made for Halloween, with pictures and everything. Let's see if I can manage to take out my laptop at home as well at some point this week, ha. (I usually just leave it in its protective sleeve inside my backpack because I can't be bothered to put it back in at night and then it ends up taking up some time in the morning... I'm sure you get where I'm going with this. Anyway.)

I've been watching In The Flesh again. Ugh! It's so good. But so irritating. Because even the "nemesis" type characters are very well written, in my opinion at least, so they're very realistic and understandable. It's frustrating how lifelike they are, really. Kieren and Simon though. Squee. (I think I've mentioned their general squee-ness in a blog post earlier, too? What even. I guess it wouldn't be too far-fetched.)

Marvel's epic news have been all over the place lately. I'm pretty sure the "leaked" trailer for Age of Ultron was pretty much planned, because it instantly made everyone really interested in what was up with Marvel Studios. And bam, less than a week later, they have huge announcements to make. Regardless of if it was planned or not, it worked out great, as usual. I'm especially looking forward to the filmatisation of Captain Marvel, when it eventually comes out.

(Also let's just ignore the end-of-the-world references in all these upcoming movies forever, okay?! X-men: Apoca-NOPE!, Thor - Ragnar-NOPE!, Avengers - Infinity Wa-NOPE! Yes, good.)

I have about an hour until some students are going to arrive for a tour of the premises. We're showing them around with the other trainee, apparently. I also spent the morning organising some things for my thesis, which is generally a mess. Well. I hope I can sort it out at some point.

Bye!