Time to party!
Or not.
I found Mario Kart 7 at a 65% discount in Citymarket because I was tipped by a friend. I'm very happy but it's also a very very frustrating game... the graphics are beautiful though, and I like the remake levels AND the new ones. I've also been playing a lot of Pokémon X now that I finished Ocarina of Time on 3DS, and I also bought Bioshock: Infinite on Friday because the price had gone down to 30€. I don't really have money for this but oh well.
One night last week I started thinking about things and my personal issues so deeply that I could not fall asleep. It was scary as hell, to be honest, I don't remember something like that even happening before. Yes, of course I've been too high-strung to sleep before, but mostly it has been due to weird sleeping patterns or excitement, not that I stress myself out with thoughts until I have heart palpitations I can feel in my stomach. Horrifying.
There's a lot of stuff I need to do, which I won't get into now because I know it'll just stress me out a lot again, but maybe I'll write about all that after I'm done with my duties.
Today is also Tom's 33rd birthday! In happier news.
I really want to draw right now, but I feel like I can't spend time on things like that in good conscience when I have so many school/other responsibilities I should take care of first. Essentially, this means that I just spend time on my phone and my 3DS procrastinating, because I don't have the self-control to keep myself from them.
I have Isku tomorrow, hopefully it goes well. I really need to write a post on the other blog about the issues I was thinking about when I couldn't sleep - i.e. how the fact that I have no life ambitions or even a will to live past 35 affects my choices and motivations about everyday responsibilities. That's going to be a fun thing to do.... not at all. But it might help organize my thoughts and maybe work on a solution - I doubt that the deeper issue is going anywhere since it's been a foundation I've built my life and psychological viewpoints on for most of my life, but maybe I can work out something that'll make my subconscious ... more stressed? Or, maybe rather more responsibility-oriented. We shall see. I need to do that on Tuesday or some day when I don't immediately have to be social or focus on something else, because when I have to write in the other blog I'm rarely very coherent afterwards.
Well, let's count this as a promise: I'll write a real post on I'll Sleep When I'm Dead on Tuesday night, until then I'll try to focus on my other responsibilities. I'm out.
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