#29

I feel like it's been forever again!

I probably should've looked at this blog first before posting more. I have no idea what point I was at when I last posted. Oh well.

Trainee period is going great, I've had fun and I think I've grown some confidence "as a youth worker" if I can say that. I'm always going to feel a bit like a little kid at my own church because I've been there since I was 14. I guess it didn't even occur to me that it would be different somewhere else. Probably also because I always get vaguely uncomfortable when I have to learn the workings of a new place or introduce myself to new people. As soon as I know someone there is literally no problem but until then.... awkward.

Anyway. I finished reading Lord of the Rings! Hooray, even though it took me like 5 weeks: now I can play the LotR books category on QuizUp. Yes, that has literally been a life goal for me. I've been so busy with traineeing that I've even neglected my Animal Crossing village for so long that I now dread going back. Oops.

I've almost finished The Hobbit as well, and then I can bring Silmarillion and Children of Húrin along with me to Tampere next weekend, maybe. We'll see.

All things considered, life is good. It occurs to me more and more often lately that I might be asexual/aromantic or at least the demi variation of either. I don't know if that comes from some weird, twisted form of self-pity or loneliness (although I don't feel at all depressed about those aspects of my life lately) or a legitimate orientation, though. I also wrote about this to A, and I hope it didn't squick her too much - I basically just wanted to throw the fact out there that I've thought about such things lately, since I have, and we tend to tell each other many things that we probably don't tell that many other people. It's kind of comforting, at any rate I'm sure it'll cause a cringe at worst, not by any means a fallout of our friendship. Ha.

Bye!